Beginnings are scary, endings, usually sad.

Sometimes, I really hope we could be as tight as close as blood sisters since I felt like I dont really have one. The countless times we wanted to meetup, to catch-up just because we have not seen you for perhaps 365days? The 5468465165456 messages we sent to ask you to come for our birthdays. Despite us trying really hard to get us all together, I cant seem to agree that it works. It takes both hands to clap, doesnt it? Really that tight on time to even spare a day for our birthdays? Full-force? When was the last time? 2008? 2007? I cannot remember man, really.
I may be wrong, may only have seen one side of the story, but, this is really what I feel, or even maybe, what WE feel.
Sigh.

I suck at maintaining friendships, I dont know how to express myself when I really need to, I dont know how to engage in REALLY interesting conversations to keep friends by my side. Or do I really have to?
I hope I am not a Disposable friend to anyone of you. Really.

"When it comes to happiness, well, sometimes life is just okay, sometimes it’s comfortable, sometimes wonderful, sometimes boring, sometimes unpleasant."